Lately, it seems like I never have enough time to do everything I need/want to do. My energy to do the things I have time to do seems much less as well. I'm waking up late, I'm dragging fairly regularly, and I always feel like I'm one step behind. Am I trying to do more stuff than I used to? Perhaps, but just a little. Not so much that I should always be feeling like I'm buried in to-dos. So where is all my time going?
I'm wondering if the lack of energy/motivation is just leading me to take longer to do everything without me even realizing it. And maybe that sense of being overwhelmed is draining my energy as well, like there's some kind of symbiotic relationship between the two.
I'm also definitely sensing one of those universal disconnects I get from time-to-time, where I just feel unplugged from everything. Wandering in a dark room with my eyes closed, if you will. So I definitely need to start dedicating some time to meditating on a regular basis, get plugged back in and get my mind back in a state of ease.
There's also a realization that I'm not terribly happy right now, which certainly is leading to a state of unmotivation. (Is that even a word?) Last night, I looked on my desk at the $3,000 laptop sitting there and realized I'm fumbling about again, seeking happiness in the material rather than the spiritual again. (Which isn't to say I'm not going to keep the laptop, mind you. I love my new laptop! *laugh* I'm sure at least some of that is good old-fashioned buyer's remorse as well.)
So, yeah… need to plug back in.