Just a quick addendum to that last post… Those little things you enjoy, playing a video game, reading a book, watching a television show… they may not be so little after all. Something as simple as playing Oblivion led to a thought train that brought about all the ideas in my last post. Even the … [Read more…]
I promise, this one isn’t about Oblivion, or video games in general. But it was the impetus for this thought pattern, so bear with me… As I’ve already lamented, I’ve been tending to spend an awful lot of time playing Oblivion lately. Sometimes several hours a night. I had been very seriously thinking about voluntarily … [Read more…]
Just checking my horoscope for this month at Buddhist Astrology: This month you are empty of planets but you have Uranus and Mercury running in opposition for 12 days and then Venus and Uranus for the next 12 days. I would focus on your wisdom and awareness. Although astrology may play a role in your … [Read more…]
I spent some time, as I promised myself, meditating and self-analyzing on my impending move, and it's place as part of a greater new beginning for me. I've been going through a lot of changes over the last six months or so, I feel like a very different person now that I was then, inside … [Read more…]
Between Oblivion and getting ready for the move, I realized that I’ve only meditated a couple times in the last week or so. I can feel the difference. I’m not as mindful, more stressed out, less happy. I feel shallow, like I’ve lost my soul. The change is striking and obvious, to me at least. … [Read more…]
Isn't it funny how the passage of time can change our perspective on things? Visiting an old place, reading a book, seeing a movie, listening to a song. We can take away something completely different every time we allow them to pour through us, as the changes in ourselves changes the filters we apply to … [Read more…]
I’ve been thinking a lot lately about solitude, being alone. About the difference between being alone and being lonely. There are a great many things that are done best alone, from my perspective. Musically, I’m my most creative when I work alone. I write better in isolation, free from distraction. Time alone allows me to … [Read more…]
I finally got the last package I was waiting for this morning and was able to complete my small meditation nook/altar today! I had been waiting for my Zafu & Zabuton (a small mat and pillow for sitting), altar cloth, and Buddha statue (in this case, of the Shakyamuni Buddha.) This joins the offering bowls, … [Read more…]
I attended a drum circle, or “Rhythmic Motivation” as it was more officially referred to, with my friend Mindy yesterday. (Full details on the program are here.) That was just what I needed right now! A few days back, I had expressed a desire to return to exploring the more visceral and performance-based world of … [Read more…]
Last night I woke up several times throughout the night, and have been up much earlier than usual today. Thing is, it’s all been because of this strange, empty feeling I have. Like I’ve been completely drained of all my energy and lifeforce. Like somebody has stolen my soul, if you will. All that newfound … [Read more…]
This post started out, a couple of days ago when I originally wrote it, as an examination of my winter blahs. Most (pretty much all) of my night had been spent meditating for my friend Melissa and sending all my energy her way as she had lost her mother that day. I decided I needed … [Read more…]
I am a cloud. I am floating above the world, looking down on it's splendor. The sun warms my back and the breeze cools my body. All is right with the world as I drift along, billowing, growing. Birds flo through me, planes fly over me, kites fly beneath me. I am surrounded by life, … [Read more…]
Anybody that’s known me long enough knows that I’m a pretty big skeptic, a literal realist. I believe in science, not oogy-boogy mysticism. Lately, though, I’ve been talking a lot about spirituality and souls and all manner of other un-measurables. The un-quantifiable. So how do I reconcile all these seemingly disparate views? Easy, I believe … [Read more…]
When I'm speaking of impatience, I'm speaking more of "living in the now" than anything else. I have a real problem with this sometimes, spending too much time and energy looking towards, or worrying about, what is next rather than what is now. Wishing time would hurry up so I could get to whatever plans … [Read more…]
I’ve been spending a lot of time on introspection lately. Looking at myself, who and what I am. How much do I stay true to myself, and how much do I let my self-view be colored by the vision others project onto me? What are my faults? What are my assets? Where do they overlap? … [Read more…]