I am, by my nature, a creature of habit. It’s the way I’ve always been, and is probably how I’ll always be. Generally, I consider my habitual behavior to be a positive. I have a certain way of doing things, or a certain time for doing them, and I fall into those methods fairly quickly and easily. It makes me efficient, lets me utilize my time better. I can get more done in less time, leaving me more free time to do the things I don’t always have the time to do, or try new things.
Lately, however, there’s very little (pretty much nothing) in the way of trying new things, or doing anything out of the ordinary. I’m stuck in my routine and I never really break out of it. I get up at generally the same time every day, I go to bed at generally the same time every day. I eat the same breakfast, lunch, and dinner nearly every day at the same times. I go grocery shopping the same day of the week, at the same time every week. And so on, and so on.
That routine would be fine (and not really that unusual) if they were anything happening to deviate from it, but there’s nothing. I’m on autopilot. I’m bored. I’m ready for some thing new. And I don’t know what to do or how to break out of it. Hopefully something (or, even better, someone) comes along to break me out of it, because I think I’m starting to get some bats in my belfry here.
Then again, hoping for or even relying on something external to come along and change things is rather foolish. I’m floating out here pretty alone right now, so I’m really the only one who can make any kind of meaningful change.