I’ve been wondering lately if I’m posting too much. There was a point, not that long ago really, where I hardly posted anything. Weeks would go by without a post. So I vowed to try and post more often, hoping to get where I’d post something almost every day.
That was before I set myself off on this personal rebuilding that I’ve been on. Back then, I had little worth writing about or sharing so I ended up rambling on about iPods, Apple rumors, and Grand Theft Auto all the time. Now, this whole physical, emotional, and spiritual transformation gives me so many things I want to write about and so many thoughts I want to inscribe that I can hardly hold back the torrent!
Believe it or not, I do actually try and pace myself. I have a lot of posts I keep private until I have a day where I have nothing else to say and post them then (currently, there are three posts like that queued up). But, more and more, I’m not finding days like that. I seem to always have something to say these days. I’m not just posting every day any more, I’m posting several times a day rather frequently.
I guess it comes down to who I’m doing this for. Really, I only know of two people who definitely read this with any regularity (Hi Jimmy! Hi Mindy!) and maybe a third (Hi Melissa?) so it’s not as if I’ve got a wide audience here. *grin*
So who, then, am I doing this for? Mostly for myself. I like being able to share these insights and thoughts with others, something I’ve been accused of not doing enough of, so I’m glad the important people (or, most of them at least) are sharing in this. But, it’s really just for me.
Taking the time to actually sit down and write things out helps a great deal in clarifying and focusing my thoughts, getting them organized and fully realized in a way I might not do otherwise. There’s also a real therapeutic quality in letting them all out, in that process of clarification, and in sharing them (even indirect as it is) with others. It’s a creative outlet as well, I’m very right-brained so I feel like I might die if I ever stopped creating.
So, sorry for any of you who don’t read this very regularly and are left with a novel’s worth of text every time you check in! I trust that you’d just skip a lot of it if it ever became a bore, and won’t be hurt if you did so. It’s all good, this is an internal release more than an external one. Take what you like, leave the rest on the table. *smile*