Don’t Hate Me, But…

I’m actually consciously trying to not lose weight any more, and I can’t. The pounds just keep dropping off, albeit slowly now. I weighed myself this morning and discovered I’d lost a further 4 pounds over the last 3 weeks or so, bringing the total loss up to 44 pounds now.

I’m really not trying to lose any more, honest! Things is, I can’t go back to eating crap, even if I wanted to. When I eat junk food or fast food now, I feel like complete crap after having done so. My body is used to the healthy stuff now, or maybe I’m just used to how much better I feel eating good stuff. Maybe I always felt that crappy after eating junk, but I did it so often that crappy became my default, median state. *shrug* Doesn’t matter, my eating habits and lifestyle are changed permanently.

Ah well. I’ll figure it out eventually. My diet is in a perpetual state of evolution, I’m always looking for and trying new things. I’m sure I’ll settle into some things that balance me out better at some point.